Not even god can save this movie

                     Western movies are shoved down the third world so much and through the last five years its impacts are a blight overall on Indian cinema. The yearly corporate marvel rollout formula has seeped everywhere. The same drony fights, dead background, dead actors and some numb conclusions. Same with TV. Once the model hit Indian tv productions via streaming its been awful. Same old cop drama with dim lighting and boring conclusion. Its all about the spectacle. Big banner brands which keep their brand name throughout a span of franchises. Its all about recognition of nostalgia whether its star wars or some marvel thing. Oh remember xyz character 20 films ago here's that character, are you nostalgic for em, do you remember, do you?!

         Now Indian blockbusters with big name actors have always been not great. But they still generate a lot of buzz. Its become a standard to pour truckloads money into movies and expect them to become some huge phenomenon. And they just won't. Adipurush is one of those. 

         In an era where along the past few years globally there's this yearning for "return to ancient tradition where men were strong". This isn't limited to past few years, cause largely through western media this was popular with intense fetishizing of romans or spartans (like 300 by zach snyder). But with more franchising coming in, this sort of thing moved to streaming kind of. But it still pops up like with movies like adipurush. The name might seem like its about a cave man. But no, its this weird iteration (if it can be called that even) of ramayanam where ram is just this man who cuts through hordes of demons mindlessly.

        Out of several actors prabhas seems committed to do just awful movies one after the other. His previous two films were also numb and forgetful. But third time's the charm I guess. This time he plays a cardboard cutout of rama (apparently) and also emotes like a cutout. 

        More influence from western bigwigs like marvel made the industry here follow suit. That lead to a thin veneer action movie with half baked ramayanam stitched in. It just follows the same beats as those movies. Hamfisted bad and good guy, hordes of demons, empty world and bad writing overall. Zack snyder in this blockbuster sphere definitely influenced the worst type of lighting and fight sequences through his torturous movies like Batman v superman, Man of steel, justice league and its more bloated cut. All of them have a very terrible method to ensure that themes of the movies are DARK. Which is this dull palette with dark clouds in the backdrop.

Get it, its dark

Cloudy means more dark

        Adipurush follows all that and more. It has hordes of some vague demons swarming at the protagonist for him to slaughter. And similar sequences of war where just hordes collide and explosions happen with no context adding to the convoluted plot.

We got vague demon hordes

We got hordes clashing

      

         The movie is a frantic sequence of scenes which make no sense as to why its structured that way. Most of the movie also looks very odd with large characters composited on a video-game cutscene. The problem isn't animation as a whole but its instances like this movie where there is over reliance on just CGI effects than anything little practical. There's not a single frame that doesn't come off as an eyesore. The movie is centered around Sundarakanda for a good amount but it completely abandons the SUNDAR part. It opens with a random cut to ravaana (apparently) getting his wish granted. Again the scene has no head or tail. It just cuts in and out with little build up. This is most of the movie. 

        All the audience are supposedly to be strung along with nostalgia of these stories and characters. Oh remember the vanavaasam, remember the golden deer, remember jataayu. The movie is just this botched version that the filmmaker wanted and it just wants to bank on the pre existing appeal. So most of lanka looks like a Doom II map.

This is how lanka looked by the way

Somehow lanka ended up looking like a hellish tech level from doom

        Ravaana is dressed up like gorn from star trek. And is a necromancer for some reason. Nothing in the movie is built up or no character is at least fleshed. They just do things. Most characters whether central or peripheral are just there and do nothing. Sita's there and that's it. She's there. Rama himself is just not even characterized neither explored. The movie adds nothing as to what rama's relation to his brother or hanuman is, cause hey this has been tread over so many times. Thus the filmmaker saw that as a reason to just not even try. All the director wanted is to appeal to the western corporate standard by caricaturing this character as a bogged down marvel hero who slays demons. They didn't even bother to add guards at ashokavanam. There's a very peculiar insert scene of ayodhya with dasaratha and his wife talking then abruptly its cut to rama accepting vanavaasam. As rama and sita walk away in this large empty palace we see a huge statue being chiseled by a single worker. The palace is massive with corridors looking like an airplane landing strip and somehow we are shown only two people, there's no king's council or whatever. Its just a large empty palace straight out of lovecraft's nameless city.

 

raavana according to adipurush

        Rama is just a guy who does things and espouses vague ideals. None of them are developed or dealt cause everyone knows who these people are. So just cheer and clap. Clap at the scenes you recognize. Clap clap clap. 

        No single event is properly given screentime neither the characters. Lanka is burned in a rushed 20 seconds. The bridge is built in 10 seconds. Kumbakarna is there for at least some seconds. The final fight is just under a minute and raavana dies. In short this is a terribly written, terribly acted and terribly edited movie. There's so many portrayals of this story and everyone of them is better than this. You are in dire straits when balakrishna looks better than you when doing a portrayal.

        The main push came months ago for this movie with its stringent use of the word string : Jaishriram. That has been the marketing gimmick. It didn't stop there they even fit it into a horrible uninspired song. That's been the entire marketing for this movie. Speaking of songs or bgm there's none and you won't notice any. Just one well known religious utterance that could be easily commodified. Which is funny cause all the chants watching this movie ring hollow anyway. Not even commodied religious sentiment can salvage this film. Can't wait for further movies where the marketing will focus on nama shivaya or govinda govinda or swamiye saranam ayyapa. Yay can't wait

 

        Oh if there's one thing that is endlessly run into the ground that's IP owned by rich studios.  Don't worry this is just the start, there's going to be a barrage of these movies with just mythology sticked to it or without it. Oh its coming. 

        Why even bother with this garbage? Chiranjeevi voiced hanuman and that movie has way better soundtrack too. Enough said.

 

Victim blaming, Men and Rape culture.

 I

There is widespread notion that women on a normal basis get sexually assaulted cause they are promiscuous/wear specific clothing that’s deemed as “undignified”. Victim blaming is not new to the country of India. It never was. Countless amounts of sexual harassment will always be blamed on the women. Countless amounts of marital rape cases are always blamed on the woman. Countless amounts of rape victims are told to their face that it happened cause they were “wearing some clothes” or “she was asking for it”. Needless amounts of times it is never ever questioned whether men or boys are here blame for not respecting the fundamental notion of consent. This notion is seen also in victims of child rape, where they are told that its possible that the child might be wearing “revealing clothing”. It never occurs to them that a child cannot consent.

In a roundabout fashion everyone blames victims while media rakes in money for constantly focusing on it cause that type of news is deemed provocative. Throughout film, tv or whatever media it is there is always a catering the male audience. The catering is done in way through male gaze and tons of antiquated tropes. These tropes normalize the patriarchal ideals by feeding the male audience a medium through male gaze. Male gaze in media is to present women in a way to the male audience as a object of desire. Along with that they are also portrayed often helpless, weak/needing attention. More often than not most women characters are presented as someone who is yearning for the attention of the male counterpart in the movie. The damsel in distress trope is very frequently used all sorts media ranging from movies to videogames. In movies you would find the frequent usage of the women protagonist being saved from getting raped and later on being grateful to the hero of the story for the “noble” action. Following that you will often notice that the women protagonist will completely fall in love with the main character cause of the one action he did. Even though the protagonist will be stalking her and harassing her, almost assaults her. But I guess it makes a difference in the internal logic of such movies which is: “Oh he saved her from a rapist even though he himself was one”.

Anyway what these media normalizes are the following:

1) Women are only an object of desire

2) Women are weak and crave men’s help

3) You are entitled of intimacy from random people even if they don’t know you and that they are always ready to be intimate.

4) Stalking/ following random women you encounter is normal. Pestering/harassing is a part of flirting.

5) Women only expect sexual innuendo and sexual advances constantly from you and nothing else.

Apart from general media there is also consumption of porn. Porn also normalizes fetishizing of women and normalizing rape as a sexualized thing to the young men who consume this media. Films also do that where they depict rape and its often voyeuristic and through a male gaze.

Beyond this every sort of social media platform has a lot young men cycling through their fantasies filtered through such abhorrent media. And through this whenever these men run across a women they always look at them as an sexual object. Several forums/chatrooms reinforce this cycle of extreme fetishizing of women. Commonly this fetishizing is done with the movies and porn in which is prominent in pushing such view. These men share such media onto these places and discuss their often gross to violent fantasies. More often than not this needle of fetishizing moves from actresses in film/porn to random women online or in real life.

II

This overarching culture of fetishizing women and portraying women for a male gaze has lasting consequences. Younger girls are sexualized in media a lot. Most of our media does that. There is always a clear cut disparity in actresses who are chosen for their role cause of their younger age while the same isn’t applied for the actor. Enough actresses are denied chances if they are of a certain age. They are also denied roles if they are married or have kids.

You can see this in ads. Remember the santoor ad. Here let me break it down: A old man is gawking at a women assuming the lady is very young. And he is shocked when the lady is revealed to have a kid. He is flabbergasted that a woman who looks young to him has a kid. The lady turns around says the secret is the soap. Once again this stuff reinforces unnatural beauty standards on women and normalizes this fethishization of younger woman.

One of the more prominent examples of this I can recall is the actress from balika vadhu who went on to become film actress. This person was cast alongside in films where the men are older than her. She is portrayed in these films and tv shows where her character is heavily sexualized.  

As I said lasting consequences of such culture where rape and harassing are normalized and blame is put upon the victims. That paved a way for countless women who are victims of rape and other forms of sexual assault to not come out. Cause in a roundabout way the police and justice system more often deny any justice. Family and surroundings make it a specific notion if they come out about these issues they will be regarded as less of a person and would be often be blamed.

More and more workplace harassment or harassment from teachers or other men is just made to be the fault of the victim. They instill this notion that you should just bear it and move on.

Even such notions can be observed in military. One military journo posited that women shouldn’t join the military cause, Get this: The military cannot guarantee an environment that isn’t filled with harassment. What they mean is that: Men in military cannot control their urge to harass women and in no circumstance having women in military can avoid that. This person also says that women should adhere to having babies and being at home rather joining the army.

Several court cases make these views more apparent. When the court denied the victim of tarun tejpal cause the victim wasn’t acting as the judges perceive victims should act or cause she wasn’t denying his advances while he was violating her. Also the judiciary system time and again will deem marital rape as something consensual cause apparently to them “Husbands can’t rape their wives cause once married women indebted to provide sexual gratification even if they don’t consent”. Beyond the common justification there’s also some instances more recently during the elections a rape victim was denied any justice cause overarching media said it was made up by political opponents. 

III

Regardless of these instances of rape there never is a questioning of the perpetrators violating consent. But rather there is always an effort to shift the blame. The singular common blame is levied using the age old “Oh your dressing was the cause”. Even if that never comes into play in any of these incidents. Is that why a defence officer was raped and murdered by multiple men? Is that why a lone women was targeted by bunch of men, then raped and torched? Is it why the mass rape  in Gujarat 2002 happen to muslim women?.

NO. The answer’s NO.

Its just that lot of these people have the inability to understand that men or boys have this entitlement and think they are entitled to women’s bodies cause they only see women as objects of desire. Its their inability to comprehend that any women have agency and that there are boundaries. They also use rape as a form of terror (as happened during 2002 pogrom).

Essentially in their minds, to these people “IF A PERSON IS COMPLETELY NUDE ITS 100% FINE TO UNDERMINE THEIR AGENCY AND CONSENT DOESN’T MATTER”.

 

Its very stupid and moronic to think like that. Apparently if I get robbed its not cause that a person robbed me decided so, but cause I had money in hand. Apparently if someone burns my home down its cause some arsonist decided so, but rather the fault is that I got a home.

 

So get this into your head: Rape happens cause a rapist decides to rob a person of their consent and doesn’t care about agency the victim has but take over control of their agency.

NOT CAUSE OF A PERSON’S CLOTHING.

 

 

INTRIGUING BUT POIGNANT REALIZATION

I was walking up a road while suddenly I came to a point of realization . LOOK AROUND YOU : EVERYTHING IS SPANNING ITSELF INTO A COLOSSAL  DECAY .

DECAY......

yeah , decay. Decay in what ??? ONE might think..
MY answer is : WHAT NOT.

Recently I was at a theater , watching a"telugu movie" . People around me were laughing and even slightly whistling . BUT  I really  couldn't understand what it was they were enjoying or something that i'm not getting . WAS something wrong with me ? well definitely it should be . Because a entire hall was enjoying it but I couldn't utter slight laugh or glimpse at the screen . SO SOMETHIING WAS WRONG WITH ME .

ON A ENTIRELY DIFFERENT POINT WHAT IF ??? IF AND ONLY IF .... SOMETHING WAS NOT WRONG WITH ME ...

So either way if I was normal and yeah the people around me were too infact . Then what in gods name do they get to understand something filthy and full of garbage while I don't .

Let me remind something things of similar with which I assumed something was wrong but it was entirely different case of scenarios .

People have a penchant for being dumb . OR THEY ARE BAD AT ACCEPTANCE . OR THEY ARE GOOD ...VERY GOOD AT DENIAL ...
WELL....

What I have to do with anything  like that ? Why should I give a damn ? WHY should write big freaking paragraph ranting about that ?
WELL I'M NOT GREAT AT DENIAL NOR ACCEPTANCE .
I HAVE BEEN WRITING OR SAYING SUCH STUFF EVER SINCE A LONG TIME I STARTED NOTICING THE WORLD AROUND ME . I KNOW PEOPLE WHO DO . I HAVE FRIENDS WHO DO . MANY A PERSON I KNOW DOES RAISE A POLITE DISSENT . MY FATHER DOES RAISE HIS VOICE TIME TO TIME WHEN HE FEELS THE SYSTEM IS TOO LOST .

WELL THEN WHAT IS THE NEED TO WRITE ABOUT SUCH STUFF . AND IN CAPS . AM I A RANTING ASSHOLE . DON'T I HAVE WORK TO DO .

I DID SEE ENOUGH TO SPEAK MY MIND .

There are bad institutions and half of them not educational . And these weird institutions have been developed for over a long period of time .
These are trivial for anyone to know . For example these institutions say that you study this or you live your life like this or because life is constructed this way or everybody does this so should you .
It says we should not raise your voice you will be judged . We should somehow love these senseless things . There is no reason why . We just should . That is the way it is .We should say that we are free . And are we really free in sense or choice .

THESE so called institutions decide what you should watch ,eat , sleep ,piss and shit . They even say the magical words that life is nothing building career or earning money or even worse . These institutions are invisible but we are bound to that . THEY IMPLY MANY THINGS WHICH MANY  DO APPLY TO THEIR  LIFE . They say that this is what music is or even say this is what a film is or this is what life should be like . But actually in the basic sense what everyone is saying is very good is actually just full of shit .

IN THE ETERNAL WORDS FROM ATLAS SHRUGGED: 

YOUR MYSTICS PREACH BODY WITHOUT A SOUL IS A CORPSE AND SOUL WITHOUT A BODY IS A GHOST .

More elaborately we are being forced to adapt to some bad, bad attitudes . WE are being forced digest such idiotic stuff down our gullet . 

What is the point anyway . When someone tells you its not hygenic or even  good to defecate openly no we won't care . We just  keep on defecating  everywhere . 

We have a bad habit of barging into other people's lives and just decide things for them blatantly . We teach everyone how to live and keep on implying the correct path of career is not what they have chosen . 

WE ARE A SOCIALLY ACTIVE SOCIETY . OH YEAH EVERY BIT OF SARCASM INCLUDED . WE ARE JUST SOCIAL IN SOCIAL NETWORKS . WE SOMEHOW ARE INCULCATING THIS TO OUR KIDS TOO . EVERY ONE IS BEING FORCED WITH A URGENCY OF HAVING SOCIAL LIFE ON SOCIAL NETWORKS . FRIENDS DON'T MEET UP ANYMORE NOR FAMILIES . SCREW IT , WE HAVE FACEBOOK. KIDS ARE NOT KIDS ANYMORE . STUDENTS ARE NOT STUDENTS ANYMORE .  WE JUST LOVE USING PHONES ITS SOME SORT OF A WEIRD STATUS EVERYONE IS APPLYING THEMSELVES TO . THIS MINDLESS EXERCISE IS MANDATORY  FOR EVERYONE . WE DON'T EVEN READ OR WATCH NEWS ANYMORE.

SCREW IT WE HAVE INTERNET WE HAVE FACEBOOK TWITTER ALL KINDS OF BULLSHIT . WE  APPLY TO THIS MINDLESS LOGIC . HOW MANY KIDS ARE PLAYING OUTSIDE ? NO THEY SHOULD NOT PARENTS SAY . THEY GIVE THEM MOBILES TO PLAY . AND IN TURN THESE PARENTS WILL CHILDISHLY COMPLAIN THAT THEIR KIDS DON'T LEAVE THEIR PHONES AT HOME FOR A MINUTE . THEY ARE SOMEHOW PROUD OF IT .WE ARE SHORT OF WILL POWER AND SHORT OF BALLS TO ACCPET SOME THINGS ARE OUR FAULTS . WE ACTIVELY ARE CAPABLE TO BLAME AND COMPLAIN ABOUT THINGS AND BLAME IT ON SOMEONE ELSE . THAT IS WHAT WE ARE HEADING TOWARDS . BLAME ALL YOU WANT . BLAME WHOEVER YOU WANT . BUT CONSEQUENCES WILL COME FINDING YOU . SHIVA WILL OPEN THIRD EYE . RUDRAM WON'T BE ENOUGH THIS TIME TO SOOTHE HIM .

WE ARE COMITTING UNSPEAKABLE SINS . WE ARE DESTROYING MANY LIVES OF KIDS BY FILLING THEIR MINDS WITH ALL SORT OF SENSELESS STUFF . WE LIVE TO PURSUE SOULLESS CAREERS . STUDY IN EDUCATION LESS COLLEGES  .

BACK IN TIME I ONCE READ A ANSWER TO QUESTION , THE QUESTION WAS ABOUT HOW TO MAKE MY LIFE MISERABLE OF MISERABLE . THE ANSWER WAS : study and pursue education for money , marry for sex and then in the end once your life is hell you can just blame it everyone else that its their fault not yours to make it more miserable than miserable .

So why am I talking about all this . Why am I ranting on about something this long ? what is the endgame ?
It is painful to notice that parents are incapable of parenting by themselves but turn towards some one else to tell them how children should be raised . They make their kids go though hell and say  that is way to do it . They assume if kid is it getting 99 out 100 then there is something seriously wrong that he is missing that one mark . Then they will consult a coaching centre or someone else to teach their no no not teach but to make them get that one mark .
THERE are teens who are committing suicides that they did not nail some exam or some mark . They don't see the important thing in life is not that . Nobody has a outlook these days . We just indulge ourselves into false beliefs and prove ourselves something . We raise our children and let them cultivate double standards . There is no purpose in education any more. Students and yeah not just them but everyone loves cheating . YEAH CHEATING . THAT IS WHAT WE ARE PLANTING IN KIDS' MINDS . NOT SO RECENTLY SOME KID ASKED ME THAT WHEN I WAS PLAYING A GAME IN MY PC . I WAS LOSING THAT LEVEL SO MANY TIMES BUT I WAS CONSTANTLY  TRYING TO BEAT THAT LEVEL FOR SO LONG . THE KID CHEEKILY SAYS 'WHY DON'T YOU TYPE THE CHEAT AND WIN THAT LEVEL ' . I HOARSELY RESPONDED THAT THEN THERE IS NO FUN IN THE GAME .
WELL NOW LET ME TELL YOU THAT THIS IS NOT THE REASON THAT I SPOKE ABOUT  CHEATING . STUDENTS DON'T GET THE LOGIC OF EDUCATION IS TO LEARN A THING OR TWO . BUT FROM THEIR PERSPECTIVE IT IS FOR A EXAM OR IT IS FOR GETTING MARKS OR JOBS .THEY BELIEVE THAT VERY MUCH . SO MOSTLY THAT IS BEGINNING OF CHEATING . THE NEXT PHASE COMES WHEN THEY THINK EVEN THIS PREPARATION IS WASTE OF TIME AND THEY THINK EDUCATION IS NOT UNDERSTANDING BUT MEMORIZING THINGS BY HEART TO GET MARKS . THEN THIS PERSPECTIVE GOES FURTHER THAT THIS IS ONLY REQUIRED FOR EXAM SO WE WILL MEMORIZE IT DAY BEFORE EXAM . TO TOP IT ALL TEACHERS DON'T EVEN TEACH TEXTBOOKS BUT MEMORIZING INSTEAD AND THEY WILL TAKE EXTRA CLASSES IN END BEFORE EXAMS TO COMPLETE SYLLABUS  .

SO THE POINT IS DIABOLICAL . THE POINT OF EXAM IS TO TEST YOUR KNOWLEDGE YOU GATHERED BY UNDERSTANDING THE GIST OF SUBJECT AND GRADE YOUR APPLICATION LEVEL ACCORDINGLY . BUT INSTEAD WE CHEAT BY JUST MEMORIZING BY HEART AND JUST VOMITING IT ON EXAM TIME SO THAT WE GET MARKS .


WHERE AM I GOING WITH ALL THIS . FOR STARTERS I DID COMPLETE THAT LEVEL IN THAT GAME TWO MONTHS LATER . THE POINT IS I DIDN'T GIVE UP TRYING UNTIL I UNDID MY MISTAKE .
There are many people I saw whom had dreams they had but never pursued them or abandoned them suddenly . They say they dreamt about doing that or this but in time they will throw it all away and say they need to earn money or pursue career or whatever .
WE don't dare to follow our dreams . We are too afraid of judgement sometimes.
THE POINT . THE ULTIMATE POINT I NEED TO CONVEY HERE IS THAT : WELL ,,,GIMME DRUMROLL ,, COS' WHAT EVERYONE IS PLAGUED WITH IS :


THE ILLUSION OF SATISFACTION

WE keep ourselves  in a illusion by keeping goals that we think will satisfy us . But we will never be . These illusions are simple like I will study hard to get marks and that will do it ,my life will go to great heights . When we get it we are not satisfied then we start on the next . Say, I will try hard to get that job . When we get the job we say I need that promotion then my life is great . It just goes on .



That is what it is . Decay . Decaying choice . Decaying dreams . Decaying .
There is no point in explaining why anyone will be like this . As I said many things imply everybody these days .
Seriously we need to consider somethings about where these things are leading us .
Many need to reconsider and retrospect in life that there are many things at large in life which are more important . And if you lose touch with them those things will go out of your hand and you will never get hold of them  . Do not let go of hope .

FROM STEPHEN KING'S STAND : There is no hope but there is mount hope .

I was walking up a road while suddenly I came to a point of realization .

Intriguing systems

The difference between my 10th and intermediate is as big as between star and a black hole .  Until tenth I thought beyond it I will get to learn more intriguing things . Not sooner I found out one never gets to learn anything in intermediate . Once I faced people going to intermediate or anything else I found that one person's aspiration is the one that some other guy had . So simply put the axiom is:

" society's aspirations are people's aspirations " . People dream something every one calls a dream . 

 

Individuals have no idea about their paths life ( no pun intended) . Adding more to this abnormal situation corporate college's fueling  this cremation of individual  aspirations . Parents crave for corporate colleges . Parents add a vile sentence to it saying : our kids follow their dreams . Seriously ! What dream ? Mega wads of money?. Any way I don't know if they really mean that . Parents have their own terms for joining kid in corporate colleges because studeeesss( according to parental slang you should spell the ending like say hisss) are good there or he does write tons of objective exams or he writes many model exams for his board or  he prepares  every day . Seriously ! How does writing exams or drooling 24/7 in classroom determine his aptitude or behavior or his later excellence in life.

As I said in my previous posts my interest in genetics always made me think that advancing further I will see more things and at a point I get to know max things about it . When I was in tenth I functioned like that hyper eagerness of finding new things and all. I actively played and interacted . It was cool learning without hesitation . There were no percentages for what to study and there never were . Like that without third party references I got a very good percentage . 

Wait ! This is where candy floss burns into ashes . Then suddenly everyhing burns because of one damned thing : percentages are introduced ( citation from rush(movie)) . 

That is when I was introduced to hell on earth. What momentum that must be picked up and project into the sky wasn't nurtured ? It decelerated directly toward the ground . Restlessness prevailed . More restlessness prevailed . Darkness and darkness only were left . There was no delight in lessons nor 

Delight of being there . It was like falling into a black hole . 

Why such insecurity prevails in education ? Why should one spend two years of life disease stricken and restless without relishing the joy of education? Who is responsible for destruction of lakhs of students joining annually in those colleges but make nothing out of it ?

Intriguing relation

Inspiration comes in many ways . For example in fountainhead there is a scene in first chapter of fourth part of the book . In that scene a boy who wants to write music is struggling inside and he wants to find music as music itself . He asks men  to just show their   acheivement  and the knowledge will give him courage for his work . This is that following line : "“Let me see that in one single act of man on earth. Let me see it made real. Let me see the answer to the promise of that music. Not servants nor those served; not altars and immolations; but the final, the fulfilled, innocent of pain. Don't help me or serve me, but let me see it once, because I need it. Don't work for my happiness, my brothers--show me yours--show me that it is possible--show me your achievement--and the knowledge will give me courage for mine.” When he sees monadnock valley of Howard Roark he asks him that who built it , when Roark says it was Roark himself who built the resort . Then the boy says : THANK YOU ,and leaves with his bicycle . Well the boy got his inspiration from Howard Roark and his acheivement .

Well to me in every instance of my life I should say THANK YOU to MY GRANDMOTHER because she is the sole strongest inspiration in my life . Her life and herself solely greatest inspiration and its single act of inspiration on earth and the  knowledge always gave me courage for me . We share a extraordinary bond . I learnt a great many things from her . As I already said before I say that my school life is the coolest school life . There is another reason because it will always  coolest and was cool for me and it is because of my Grandmother . She is the greatest teacher I've had ever seen . Most people live to know about one subject boast like they had analyzed everything in the world .Well I always thought that one should always preserve the spoon of oil while enjoying everything . Please note this I never realized this through "The alchemist" and I realized that long before I even read the book but in different context .My grandmother taught biology , physics , chemistry , English ,and great lot many things . She also taught something one can rarely learn from anyone and that is : LIFE. I was always fascinated by her proficiency in many different fields . So I at that inculcated the fact to myself that even if one chooses a field which doesn't connect with one's he knew before , that doesn't mean one should dump and forget other things he knew . He should also be updated with other things likely with his own interest.That is why still today I always explore and learn physics and mathematics and many other things . She is a great narrator of stories and lesons . Her lessons always captivated me and provided me the interest to learn more and read more books . From Sherlock Holmes to Atlas shrugged it is because of her I got to develop book reading habit . My best friend ever is my grandmother and our bond is that deep that this photo defines it. I always share whatever I read and when I was in between 7th or 8 th I completed Mahabharata of rajagopalachari  then I wrote that on the book . 

I used to travel with her many times and those were greatest times for me . I still remember as a kid I used to preach her while she was sleeping by decorating her with flowers . In 16 years of life every morning I know she never missed her routine . She is always organized . She always shown me how to stand tough with your values even in toughest times . She nurtured me into the person who I am now . She made me take correct roads in life . No matter how many books I read the greatest inspiration I will ever draw will be from my Grand mother . 

Well mamaaji ,Thank you for being such great inspiration.  Eternal thank you 's  for our Intriguing relation .

Intriguing aspirations

My origin of intrigue factor about agriculture and genetics goes back to time when I was in 7 th standard . At that time I was absorbed in astro physics , particle physics & GENETICS. I always wanted to go to space and alter genes in a seed and create a plant. I had coolest school life anyone can have at present time and I am always proud of that . At that time I was too secretive and never told anyne the fact that I want to become a scientist . I thought people will ridicule me but anyway something deep within me was burning and telling me shout that I wanted to become a scientist . In those days we at school frequently had debating and roleplaying . Soon the day came and that day roleplaying session begun , the school was assembled in the 2 nd floor . The topic was : what will you become in your future ?. Everyone said about their ambitions and finally I also stood up . The fire came out . I said I wanted to become a botanical engineer . To me it meant genetic engineering . Everyone wore a weird look on their faces . My father said " there is no subject called botanical engineering . Create one yourself " . There was no measure to my embarrassment . Later and sooner I realized people in our society viewed students or somebody who wants to become a scientist or wanted to agriculture as some low minded pointless person who is going for useless work or ambition . To be more accurate to people their ambition is not a ambition . Soon I saw more wider prospect of how they looked at agriculture and its allied courses when I entered college . In those days anyone who I ask what they want to become they will say this : " I will become a doctor , you see I can earn 40,000" . I never understood what that meant or that figure of 40k meant but most of them said those same words . My college implied even more stupidly about that and they always said this : "When a engineer comes into a room people will sit and look at him . When a collector  comes in people will wish him but sit. WHEN a DOCTOR comes in everyone will stand . So be proud to become one". I never understood the significance of this story because it says that one should become a doctor so that people will stand when he comes in that's all and one never really has ambition to become one except they will because people will stand when they enter . I always hated this feeling of people's view on agriculture that it is worthless . But let me tell something too . When a engineer comes into a room he will walk nice and talk nice and looks with his eyes . All that energy comes from his break fast which was a farmer's product of hardwork and engineer doesn't even know where it comes from and he also doesn't know that it is a farmers work . When a doctor comes into a room he wishes the people who stand up for him and has radiant face because he ate a good nutritious breakfast which comes from a farmer's hardwork . So let me come to the point anyway . Farmer supplies the food which runs the world . In both instances when doctor or some body else will come he will stand up even he knows that everyone there standing up to wish the doctor or doctor himself is there because he ate food which was his hardwork for a year but he will still stand up . He doesn't need your pity or respect . He is one of the people who run the motor of the world ( to say according to Atlas Shrugged ) . He doesn't care whether you stand up or not . He will not ask you don't worry . He is too modest to ask for the service he does provides the world . He will do that till his last breath . The engineer will retire and sleep in his house eating food everyday . The doctor will sleep and live in his home enjoying retirement . But the farmer still runs the world's motor by giving it food and he will feed the world . Even when the engineer or doctor die the flowers , garlands for them will come farmer's nursery . I was at first interested in physics but soon I understood one thing . It was : when man started his life on earth his first venture and subject was agriculture . When he wanted to irrigate the farm he built a canal and found engineering in it . When he wanted to provide nutrition to crop he found chemistry in it . When he calculated seed rate per square meter he found Maths in it . When he understood water should be sucked from the ground by pressure he found physics in it . I found that everything began with agriculture and so why shouldn't begin my life with agriculture ? This is what I asked myself when I was in seventh class . The answer on that day I gave to myself was : I will . So I resolved to do it and I am doing it today now . And I am proud of what I am doing ,  I am going to run the motor of the world . What is more intriguing than this ? Well , I am having  mine . Find your intriguing aspiration . Find your intrigue . Don't worry about the blog for it always has one thing and one thing only : Intrigue. Dwell it more. 

Intriguing 2 novels of the month

Well in my last post I talked about video games. It's now been 20 days or more since I came to Tnau  and  joined my ag.bsc course. Meanwhile in the awe of new things I also bought some novels with me.To be specific I bought novels of yandamuri veerandranath too.

Tulasi dalam and tulasi were the best picks in that collection with me. I respected horror genre always. I had specific combination of tastes H.p.lovecraft , E.a.poe, & Stephen king. While that is like that I also specifically watch some horror movies which impart that feeling originally. Gothic and psychological horror were always specific for picks. Well Tulasi dalam and tulasi are bleak ,thrilling combination of both which rivet the reader into infinite number of turns,shocks ,and shudders.

In tulasi dalam there is scene where protagonist tulasi Who is in bed for almost 16 days (while her mom and dad are in corners waiting for somebody to come ) suddenly when guy (saraswati) enters the place drunk saying he forgot to give her 3 drops of blood stands up breaks the guy's head into two. Then drinks 3 drops of blood from him. The scene involved like I was there standing with Sridhar and saradha. Like wise in tulasi when tulasi visits darkha before leaving to airport and tells him about herself and leaves. Darkha runs behind her car like hell and nearly blasts a airplane. The entire scene skips the heartbeat and makes you run with him. Well the feel when both books ended was electric in the spine .

 Like when I completed "Haunting of hill house" it left me thinking what were real causes of the incidents (whether it was supernatural or psychological ). Well anyway the book ends with a great line : Whatever walks there walks alone. That line left me spellbound. I felt so happy when I got same feeling when I completed tulasi dalam and tulasi. So sad to see that there is not exact thrilling reproduction of these books as films. Anyway I am  listening to a song playlist just now last two songs : 1) voodoo - spirit beach 2) rio - Duran Duran ended just now. So I'm retiring to my room to sleep. That's it for the blog today . I will dwell for more intrigue soon. Until then, dwell.